finally

i passed my bike and yeah.. damm happy la !

but as well as sad.. cos yeah how could some one claim she loves me but yet be with another guy??

i think its just cheap words.. abt love and stuff.. way over used
she said she wun choose both but once i was gone.. she got together wif him..

haha complete flop man..

oh well..
fuck it man

i have my bike all ready and stuff.. just left about 1 full day of spraying & fixing back the parts.. and get the insurance and road tax done..

and i am going to be declared a bankrupt !
haha
seriously loh

$120 road tax
$300 insurance

my $500/mth pay is gone..

minus the bus fair and food !
damm i will just die lah

not like anyone cares anymore..
sigh

i think u will be better off

yeah i think it would be better for u if we just part.

why i am being a jerk as usual..

so u would hate me and get back to ur life faster..

theres no point in holding u back if your heart is elsewhere..

so i chose to let go..

i am so tired yet i cant sleep at 3 am.

i dunno man

but yeah i should get on wif my life as usual..

well i am sure its over

thats the last straw..

she is just too much i guess..

claims to love only me, yet go to sentosa wif another guy and clubbing with him.. and yeah call me old-fashioned but nah friends DO NOT kiss the opp sex in my dictionary...

i might be a flirt but hell if u do know my friends.. they know i did change alot after being with her, i quitted smoking for about 2months(the duration we were together b4 the on-off break-ups) so yeah it like i have been smoking for like i think 10 years dude... trust me its not easy !
and yeah i gave up many of my female friends and stuff.. i kinda think its not worth it man.. while she is like sleeping & flirting around.. FUCK !

hrmphs time to let go i guess... its just fucking not worth anything more.. i should just get on with my life and yeah perhaps settle down.


well so yeah its all nothing much dirt cheap words.. nah i wun bother to believe wateva she is gg to say cos i think this is it !

so now i declare i am single and ready to mingle ! woo~
a couple of gals i am considering at the moment

1) vivian
2) wei qi
3) ai mei
4) joyce

yeah not ranked in any particular order..

i shall just fuck the past man.. although its kinda sad after putting so much commitment & time & money & love & emotions & effort, i really think shes not worth it.. with her kiddo mentality and living in her "dream world" where everything is like in fairy tales.. when its not possible ! gosh.. really have the metality of a kid man.. perhaps when she is more matured in her thinking, we will see how it goes. but yeah she is a mere 20 and i am her 1st real bf actually.. so yeah screw it man...

fuck the world !

in a fix

should i continue wif my job as my paying is going to be $1K from $500..
or should i go travel and spend all my years of savings?

well seems like she already happy flirting wif that fucker terence or wateva his name.. mutha farker.. so yeah let her childish mind do wat she wants..

hate such in-direct gals man.. childish actions.. really..

well did i regret breaking up wif her? yes and no..

lets start wif why yes..

1) my parents love her
2) she is always there when i needed someone
3) she is actually a very nice gf
4) she is willing to sacrifice alot of stuff for me
5) i miss the times we flew kite both at marina and upper pierce
6) she gives me sweet nice stuff like letters, medicine, food !
7) my cousins and relative love her
8) she is just so willing to do small stuff which drives me gaga~
9) she took damm good care of me when i was really sick
10) sushi is crazy over her

now why no....
1) her mum hates me, perhaps its the typical cantonese thinking(no offence other cantonese) but yeah i dun come from a rich family. so in a way her mum feels i am not "good" enough for her in $$$ wise
2) she gives empty promises
3) she have really childish mentality
4) she sat someone's bike. when the guy should be me ! thats the last straw
5) she has been giving her msn and hp numbers out to guys online while we were together
6) her good friend thinks i suk. cos the good friend is my ex-gf. well~
7) she has tons of pride... will never apologise nor give in
8) she keeps alot of secrets to herself, then wats the point of being together !


well thats abt it..

well i am tired.. 1 whole week of shoot. full day shoots !
fuck lah. damm tired.