been told to update my blog

but hrmphs.. blogs do make people sad at times..
hiaz...

neway my biz is back on track, got my domain registered, web hosting settled and a few others.. which is good :)

its been really busy lately.. helping uncle alex with his office computer and stuff.. work has been alright.. a tad busy lately.. and more stuff is spoilt.. so hmm... but manageble i guess...

was out for sinful supper the other day with weiqi.. wat a jerk bf she has gotten herself loh ! a two timer ass.. and yet she is so soft hearted to continue this crap... hiaz... he is making use of her with her under paid job.. weiqi ! ur a famous apparel designer.. dun let yourself fall into this deep dark whirl of sadness and sorrow.. u deserve better den this ! go for a proper job..

well nothing much has really happend to my already boring life so yeah..

my vespa is now parked at my house carpark and yeah :) its cool..

yawns.. its 4am in the morning and i aint sleeping.. damm.. had a bad headache and slept for awhile.. now better but cant get back to sleep so yeah.. heres my boring life... very typical of most bloggers.. blogging about their daily lives.. which i find a bore to read.. so yeah.. it shall be one of the few daily blogging which i have done..

cheers
gab

A good read

An article that I find it's very meaningful...
Just to share this with you...

Those who are single may learn something from here? those who are already married may take this as a guideline to improve your marriage?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there is a large man sitting next to her, so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered, "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing in your mind? Every relationship has a cycle.
In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch and liked their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it is called "Falling In Love".

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet". Think about the imaginery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there, doing nothing and then something came along and HAPPENED to you. Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens) and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking "Did I marry the right person?" and as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown.

People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious but sometimes people turn to work a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You COULD. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON, IT IS LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll never just happen to you.

You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labour of love". Because it takes time, effort and energy, and most importantly, it takes WISDOM.

You have to know what to do to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable? you can "MAKE" love?

Sentimental

I think i shouldnt have sms-ed her in the first place... hmm.. its making me think a whole load more.. and thats not good..

sometimes i just wonder why she doesnt have any initiative. its always me me me.. and yes i am tired of this.. hmrphs.. she never doesnt initiate smses and stuff.. why do some gals claim to have a liking towards u but yet let u do all the work.. and once ur done with tons of work.. in the end its just like its not enough !

abit of an emo post this is.. but yeah it cant be read by anyone... perhaps not yet... till i am ready to let these expired thoughts be published.. perhaps when all i felt doesnt matter in anymore.. sad to say it didnt matter right frm the start.. well well well..

met up with aaron today and yeah he is going to get my website down up and stuff.. needa do write up which i've been dragging myself to do.. i really needa concentrate hard man gabriel..

today was a fucked up day.. my dumb ass boot licker colleugue of mine approached me saying wat i spoke bad about him behind his back... and stuff.. way too childish.. and since he is being transfered to another dept.. i dun give a shit about it anymore... and like i have predicted.. he managed to brain wash a new guy in my dept.. who has no common sense and such.. truely and insult to diploma holders.. its a mean thing to say.. but wait till i tell u wat he has done.. even a 10year old wouldnt do such a thing....

he is being made a puppet by that boot licker.. soon he will realise.... i am not one bit intrested in staying is this dumb place of where i am working right now... i learn NOTHING for the past few months... its a back dated place.. the first day i walked into the damm office it was a step back into time.. into the 1980s... everything is slow paced and relax and chill and yeah.. i just cant do this kinda job.. i love to be on my toes.. communication with different people... meeting new people etc... i am secluded in this lame pit of shit ! i hate ranting on and on about my job.... i seriously hate it ! but its really killing my passion and soul.... its making me sick...

well well well well.......... hope the bloody HR is doing some work ! if i am not happy staying there.. i wun do a good job.. if they wanna fuck with me. i can fuck back with them.... i can choose not to answer my hp... they aint paying one cent anyway.. i have my rights and i do have a choice whether to answer ornot... so yeah..

this place is just restricting me man... i'm not new to the work force... so yah.. damm it..

But i do admit i'm damm short tempered.. it might be my downfall.. i might not be tactful when it comes to certain things.. knowing where i stand.. i hope to change.. if i can quit smoking which i have done for 11 years.. i seriously dun see why i cant change this flaw of mine.. learn how to communicate efficiently... thats the real cause of why people get angry.. cos its either they cant get others to understand.. or others cant understand them.. therefore they get pissed, either with themselves or with others...

Another flaw of mine is i look down on people sometimes.. its crazy to admit this flaw over the net where everyone can read it.. but yeah.. i dare do the un-do-able, i look down on people like that guy in my dept... i really should change that mindset of mine as well.. hrmphs... after reading some self improvement books.. i realised that everyone has a value :) make that person work your way... w/o coming across as snobbish or such... that boot licker has been doing a good job.. he has got alot of people playing his game.. thats something which i look up to... i still have lots to learn..

damm.. it feels kinda good now after writing all this crap.. cos i dun really have a special someone to share how i feel and such.. its indeed a nice place to ermm.. transform my thoughts into words and such.. :)

i feel happy..

Wreck

Yes I am indeed in a sorrow state now. No fear of being perceived as a weakling and such. I am a fucking wreck ! I’ve just got so much on my hands its mad ! I am about to suffer from depression or stress or something.. why so? Cos I have losta stuff yet to be done.

1)Have my biz up
2)My job with regards to my pay increment
3)My bike has been giving me problems
4)My love life which doesn’t exist in the first place

I swear its killing me ! sleepless nights.. for the past 2-3 weeks.. reason being I was there to take care of someone which I realized was so dear to me so quickly. It was just a crazy month for me.. praying till I fell asleep many a times.. I think I have made a big mistake by falling too quickly AGAIN! Damm ! it sux big time.. somehow everyone needs a someone.. its just normal I guess.. I shouldn’t be trying too hard dang~. Let go gab let go.. She doesn’t even reveal her feelings I dun even know how to react and I dun even know where I stand ! But wat I know is that someone does hold a great importance in her life and ofcos its not me ~ So here I am letting go. Since she is already recovered well and can more or less take care of herself.. there is not much need for me to take care of her anymore.. my job is more or less done hmm.. I take my leave… Thanks babe I din regret doing wat I did one bit, its my utmost pleasure. I would do it all over again given another chance.. I hope I dun have to that is.. ride safe babe.

Have to get my biz on track.. others can wait.. just have been dragging my biz stuff for too long. Its just not right.. my love stuff have got to be put on hold.. without doubts… since its going no where..

Like a lot of my posts. My thoughts or writing is all over.. w/o a proper theme nor anything.. its just damm random ! one min talking about my dog and the other about something else..

I was on the way to dap’s house and guess wat.. I hit a bird ! a flying bird ! it came flying towards me.. and hit the jaw of my FF helmet. And den onto my shoulder. Wat are the chances of it happening man ! It’s the bird’s lucky day.. I was going at only 60-70km/h .. else it would be gone ! and my sweater as well.. more birds more luck :P

Signing off
Gab

apologies

I have been really busy lately.. due to some personal reason, i havent got enough time to blog...

Firstly, I've already send a mail up to the HR with a request for a pay increment.. due to the stand-by requirement and stuff.. my contract doesnt have enough benefits... not talking about the year end bonus where people can buy nice stuff for the new year or Xmas stuff.. i have none ! damm it.. hmm.. but as a first job i would treat it as a learning curve by which its been a tough climb.. when i realised that i was abit "cheated" in a way.. i was promised OT pay of 1.5.. the standard rate and when i went there.. its just time off.. damm ! useless time off man.. money talks..

Secondly, i have been neglecting my biz start up.. but yes i am very determined to get back on track and probably launch on my birthday :) alot of work to do.. and i am doing it alone.. its a tiring job when i have a 8-5 job and after work its like alot of places are closed after work.. etc... but wat the hell.. having a partner is quite out of the picture cos to prevent conflicts due to $$$ matters... i think its better to do it alone.. if the capital is within the budget i set aside..

Thirdly, my dumb love life.. to be honest i have none to begin with lolz.. always falling for the wrong gals and such.. its seems destined that i will be single.. due to the nature of my job and my biz.. i just cannot afford the luxury of time and money to be attached.. somehow everyone needs a someone to be there. and i have none which is kinda tragic cos hmm.. its just sad lah...
words cant explain how i feel actually.. maybe i could.. but i would choose not to... cos like i blogged before.. your real feelings can never be revealed online.. it just makes alot of things more complicated than they already are..

signing off
gab