smoking

I am proud to announce that i have officially quit smoking !

Since secondary 1 i picked up this fucked up habit of mine.. smoking.. we went to the railway track behind my school... squeezing thru a small hole in the fence out of the school.. as well as up to the stage changing room.. to smoke..

i remember the price of fags costs a mere $1.80 for a pack of 10s its either $1.80 or $2.10.. and then it started to rise to about $11.00 for a pack of 20s now..

i feel that the banning of the 10 stick per pack is a dumb idea ! it just makes people smoke more.. cos smokers would know.. fags will "lao hong" means lose the flavour after about 3 days being open.. so when i started.. we finished 10 sticks in 3 days.. then we had to finish 20 sticks in 3 days ! to prevent it from losing its taste.. so i am so damm sure it made smokers heavier smokers !

well to be honest i dun really feel great quitting smoking.. cos the fag has always been a good buddy of mine..

during my mountain climbing... reaching the peak, after the hard trek up.. nothing beats a ciggs with good friends.. over a cold bottle of sprite or something..

during BMT.. after a long and wet day.. being soaked and having road march.. smoking just before bed time...

during my back packing trip alone in the phillippines.. staring into the sunset... or just lazing by the beach.. i was so lonely to be honest.. it was there.. its hard to explain to other who think.. common! its just a cigg ! hmm.. it has already became a buddy of mine after 11 years of smoking..

wat made me quit?
i dunno man ! its just a thought that all smokers had... to quit smoking.. so i was thinking.. why am i such a slave to something that harms u.. it just didnt make sense ! am i too weak to quit??

so i pushed myself to quit.. ofcos it was damm fucking fucking tough !
how i did it..
1) hang out with smokers less..
2) STOP buying ciggs
3) be strong.. mentally
4) replace ciggs with food-yes i know nothing beats a stick after a good meal !
5) replace ciggs with sweets..


okie thats about it..
well i did suffer from horrible stuff after quitting..

1) my nose bleed for about 2 weeks.. almost every day
2) my coughed blood & black lumps of i think tar.. for about 2 weeks as well
3) my mouth had ulcers which just wun go away..
4) short tempered
5) ate ALOT ! because food starts to taste better once u quit
6) felt damm lonely and sad.. almost like depression mode or something
7) i ate even more.. i am too scared to even weigh myself now ! haha..
8) i felt very breathless when the lift at my work place broke down.. 3 stories only !
9) very very restless, din feel like doing anything..
10) running nose.. thats the most common problem..

but yes now i am smoke free and stuff. i feel happy.. ofcos temptation is always there.. ! but i told myself.. be mentally strong gab !

i had to put my biz plans on hold due to lack in funds as well as din feel like doing anything due to the quitting stage...

so now i am back for more !
hope to launch in june/july..

maybe on my birthday would be cool as well.. :)

signing off
gab

been moons since i blogged !

well now i am back for awhile i guess..

after anita asked why i havent been blogging lolz..
so yeah..

well nothing intresting had happend for the past few months i guess..
no gf, no sex(CAN U BELIEVE THAT!?i swear its true), nothing...

for those who are still intrested in this blog which was "dead" for so long..

i've switch careers from being a photographer and film grip to something more stable and pays me on time..
back to my technical roots.. i am currently a technician at singapore changi airport.. doing maintenace of X-ray machines and walk-thru detectors.

i think finally i've began to see gals in a different light.. which is ofcos in a very good way !

used to view gals as sex objects and stuff.. but after hanging out with an older gal.... i felt totally different.. the time spent with her was so pure and nice.. i did not even have "immoral" thots about her... i was thinking to myself.. gosh am i fucking turning gay or something.. then something struck me.. perhaps she is the one that i've always been looking for.. something beyond appearance and sexual desires .

Beyond the age barrier. But it seems so near yet so far... gals are generally early bloomers in terms of puberty or in careers.. due to the 2years lag that guys suffer from which is called NS !
so its like i am behind her in the career aspect for about 5 years or more !

Its a gals thing that even thou she likes a younger guy, he has to be at least stable and has a good career and stuff.. i fully understand that fact.. and if a female friend chose to be with a poor guy who has no career and in debts.. i would certainly tell her to forget it.. it wun last so dun waste ur efforts... but such money digging guys are pretty smart as well.. they would either
1) make the gal preggy
2) threaten to commit suicide
3) be like a dog to her. since he doesnt have any thing !

i am obviously not that money digging dog.. else i wouldnt have left my ex gf who drives a vw beetle, stays in a house which cost perhaps a million or so.. has a dad who drives a beemer 5series.. some friends say why i am so dumb to let go of such a good "catch" when i could have a comfortable life in the future..

being a true believer in love just recently ! (after about 10+years of dating experience) i honestly believe its more than just money or career that makes or breaks a r/s... not saying money is not important ofcos.. i do love money to bits :) who doesnt?

but a few questions gals shld ask themselves b4 jumping into a r/s

1) are u able to enjoy doing things together? for eg. travel, sports, bungee jumping etc

2) will u get bored of the guy in time to come? if he does nothing on weekend, watching TV and playing chinese chess with his pet tortise or something

3) does he do more than wat money can buy for u? not a 100rose bouquet but a card made with small swarovki crystals he glued on spelling your name.. getting his fingers super glued together just to complete that card

4) does he spend money un-wisely ( theres a saying, its not how much u earn, its how much u save) my bet is that if he is a mahjong addict wearing red underwear for luck during his get-rich programme every alternate day the r/s will get no where.. horse racing on sat and sundays is part of that get-rich scheme lolz.

5) the most important i feel ! FAMILY.. does his family like u? do u like his family?? parent will get old and sick someday.. it would be a pain to care for someone u hate.. unless u plan to buy heavy insurance for his mum and force a heart attack by hiding in the dark and give your mother-in-law a run for her money by jumping and screaming madly in the middle of the night.

6) is he hard working? chances are if he is lazy to do the chores.. your the one who will be doing it.. and also chances are if he aint hardworking, he would be lazy to please u on the bed.. so u will be left half high and dry.. do u like ur gin extra dry? or rather it smooth and sliding down that tunnel like a mango tango magarita?


GOSH i sound like aunt annie !

ciaos! leave a tag or something if u enjoyed this post :)
i might start blogging more if respond is good lolz..

gab