alas

i've got a so called "new" computer for my graphics work.. kinda happy but yet after 3 days.. its not done... why? there seem to be some error with the old motherboard i am using.. theres some conflict of drivers or something.. wasting my time man ! up to now i still dunno wats wrong.. :( considering i am good at repairing computers.. yet this is one of the most problematic computer i have met...

but wat to do.. dun have the cash to buy a new motherboard and cpu and ram.. have to just make do with more ram, and a new dvd writer and new 19" screen which totally rox ! its damm huge lah.. lolz.. very happy with that..

so my AMD cpu and motherboard with stanley oh from my air base gave me.. couldnt work :( still using my old dell 667mhz pentium3 computer which is turning yellow btw but still works like a charm.. its pretty good stuff i would say.. considering my computer is on 24hrs..

so now i am installing windows XP on the cpu and motherboard sanjay gave me.. sigh.. i dun even know how fast is the cpu.. if it lags too much for any graphics work.. i might really have to get a new cpu and motherboard and ram.. which means at least $500-$600 :( sigh.... prays its fast enough for some work....

well this has been ermm.. the worst 2-3 months of my whole damm life lah... nothing seems to be going on track.. in terms of :
1) work- i hate my colleauge -_-\\\
2) biz- it has been really slow pace-very tiring doing it alone
3) bike- i lost track of how much i spent on it.. speechless
4) love- the one i love aint in love with me, the wrong people fell for me -_-

thats enough shit for 2-3 months i guess !

i need a holiday really badly man.. ! anywhere is good.. just get me out of this shit for awhile....

Durian gloves

they just bring back fond memories.. why something so simple is so meaningful and able to activate certain emotions in me..

The first time using them was during poly days.. my CCA, The Adventure Seekers... we had to do pioneering... which is to built those huge structure for NP open house and where sec school students and visitors are able to try the elements we built.. wearing those DURIAN GLOVES to tie knots and lashings... it was tears, sweat, blood.. and many more... its tough but yet really fun.. TASIC.. the best thing that happend to me in my poly life..

Yet another time DURIAN GLOVES were used was during my YEP project to vietnam.. we had to build a class room for the village peeps.. and yes its hard work again.. thats one of the best trip i had... i love to travel.. not in luxury.. but backpack style.. somehow u get to see alot of things in a different light.. people are not so fake.. and gives u good service cos u paid a leg or arm for it... u eat like the locals do.. u pay the same price.. no special clean plates or special chairs.. nothing.. i like that.. :)

Third time i remembered using these DURIAN GLOVES is during my bike lessons at bbdc.... its cos i crash my car so i wanted a trasport badly.. so thats why i took a bike license.. now i love biking to the core.. i used to think its damm dangerous( i still do agree its dangerous) and its like when i drove.. i dun give a damm to bikers.. i squeeze them to the sides.. and i feel powerful.. with the metal protection i had.. it was den after taking my bike license that made me realise... they are humans too.. they have a right to be on the road. and such.. so yeah i am a safe driver and biker now.. but who knows wat will happend the next time i am biking... theres always this big question mark when u ask a biker who is single..

If your half body paralyse, who will take care of u ? its either they choose not to think of that question to deny the fear or the emptiness that they have.. perhaps thats why bikers tend to look for bikers as a partner(jiahui now u know why sooooo many guys are after u ah? :P ahboy, WHAHA).. somehow they will understand this deep fear and passion.. i guess this is the thin line btw life and death btw bikers that makes bikers closer den compared to car drivers.. well its an unspoken bond which seems to appear from god knows where.. no one has an explanation nor reason for such feelings..

well well heres the end of the durian gloves story of mine..

Just Time

Is time a factor?

Or just a chapter

Looking at the weather

Wiliting like a flower

That burning desire

Just like my fire

In dire

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Just a lil poetry written about how i feel.. and it somehow looks like a heart.. aww.. well~

gab

been told to update my blog

but hrmphs.. blogs do make people sad at times..
hiaz...

neway my biz is back on track, got my domain registered, web hosting settled and a few others.. which is good :)

its been really busy lately.. helping uncle alex with his office computer and stuff.. work has been alright.. a tad busy lately.. and more stuff is spoilt.. so hmm... but manageble i guess...

was out for sinful supper the other day with weiqi.. wat a jerk bf she has gotten herself loh ! a two timer ass.. and yet she is so soft hearted to continue this crap... hiaz... he is making use of her with her under paid job.. weiqi ! ur a famous apparel designer.. dun let yourself fall into this deep dark whirl of sadness and sorrow.. u deserve better den this ! go for a proper job..

well nothing much has really happend to my already boring life so yeah..

my vespa is now parked at my house carpark and yeah :) its cool..

yawns.. its 4am in the morning and i aint sleeping.. damm.. had a bad headache and slept for awhile.. now better but cant get back to sleep so yeah.. heres my boring life... very typical of most bloggers.. blogging about their daily lives.. which i find a bore to read.. so yeah.. it shall be one of the few daily blogging which i have done..

cheers
gab

A good read

An article that I find it's very meaningful...
Just to share this with you...

Those who are single may learn something from here? those who are already married may take this as a guideline to improve your marriage?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there is a large man sitting next to her, so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered, "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing in your mind? Every relationship has a cycle.
In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch and liked their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it is called "Falling In Love".

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet". Think about the imaginery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there, doing nothing and then something came along and HAPPENED to you. Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens) and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking "Did I marry the right person?" and as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown.

People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious but sometimes people turn to work a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You COULD. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON, IT IS LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll never just happen to you.

You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labour of love". Because it takes time, effort and energy, and most importantly, it takes WISDOM.

You have to know what to do to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable? you can "MAKE" love?