luck

luck hasnt been great on me man.. :(
during cny lost like $100+ to gambling.. haha
and even during mahjong $0.10 $0.20 i lost like $17..
and even billards.. $0.50 $1.00 i lost like $18..
hahah
this year just sux !!!!!
i thought i have been doing good deeds like giving apples and oranges to the old folk's home near my house it will be good.. but hell no ! hahah.. guess i shall stick back to being a jerk.. being a good guy is tough man.. its soo damm tiring..

its valentine's day and i am date-less.. could it be retribution?? hrmphs.. i really ponder man.. it has been like say 8 years and this is the first i am w/o a date.. feels like weird.. but i guess its time for me to get serious wif the next gf i am gg to be wif.. i am soo fucking afriad of r/s honestly.. i might see tough and a flirt on the outside.. this is so not me.. cos its just an exterior shield to prevent the soft tofu heart i have inside from being injured and hurt.. i dun dare to put everything into a r/s.. for fear it fails.. i'll be shattered.. gosh..

now i am in a fix.. hrmphs.. there dat gurl who have been on my mind for like ages !!! since pri 6 ! man can u just imagine.. but i dun dare make a move on her.. cos her dad's a pastor.. and its like intimidating.. i dunno y.. dun ask me.. lolz.. hmm.. but yah.. i havent really straighten out my thought yet.. so yeah
i might be studying marketting soon.. after i ord.. perhaps in SIM.. hmm.. yeah..

anyway thats all for today